watched whatever the show is that comes on before "the unit", and the killer ended up being diagnosed with narcissistic personality disorder. they were going through the symptoms...sounded familiar. so i wiki'd it etc...

once my psych said that i have an unhealthy attraction to narcissists and if i didn't crack it i would be unhappy my whole life.

no WONDER i was so frustrated for the past 8 years. i thought i was actually dating humans, not monsters. duh.

By Mayo Clinic staff
Narcissistic personality disorder symptoms may include:

Believing that you're better than others
Fantasizing about power, success and attractiveness
Exaggerating your achievements or talents
Expecting constant praise and admiration
Believing that you're special
Failing to recognize other people's emotions and feelings
Expecting others to go along with your ideas and plans
Taking advantage of others
Expressing disdain for those you feel are inferior
Being jealous of others
Believing that others are jealous of you
Trouble keeping healthy relationships
Setting unrealistic goals
Being easily hurt and rejected
Having a fragile self-esteem
Appearing as tough-minded or unemotional

Although some features of narcissistic personality disorder may seem like having confidence or strong self-esteem, it's not the same. Narcissistic personality disorder crosses the border of healthy confidence and self-esteem into thinking so highly of yourself that you put yourself on a pedestal. In contrast, people who have healthy confidence and self-esteem don't value themselves more than they value others.

When you have narcissistic personality disorder, you may come across as conceited, boastful or pretentious. You often monopolize conversations. You may belittle or look down on people you perceive as inferior. You may have a sense of entitlement. And when you don't receive the special treatment to which you feel entitled, you may become very impatient or angry. You may also seek out others you think have the same special talents, power and qualities — people you see as equals. You may insist on having "the best" of everything — the best car, athletic club, medical care or social circles, for instance.

But underneath all this grandiosity often lies a very fragile self-esteem. You have trouble handling anything that may be perceived as criticism. You may have a sense of secret shame and humiliation. And in order to make yourself feel better, you may react with rage or contempt and efforts to belittle the other person to make yourself appear better.

It is essential that you keep emotional distance from narcissists.


Anonymous said...

You are definitely someone who will never be happy in life. No one is ever good enough for you. The guy that treats you well isn't the guy that you want because it bores you to death.

Anonymous said...

The symptoms seem kind of general. I think most successful people in NYC are like this.

hungry girl said...

"anonymous #1"

MOM! i told you not to comment on my blog anymore!!!

lest i remind you that I (capital letters, italics, bold...) broke it off.

right now the only think making me unhappy is the little wrinkles showing up under my eyes.

other than that, these fucking tear ducts are dry, dry, dry.

hungry girl said...

anonymous #2

the difference between conceited and narcissistic is that narcissists have absolutey no regard for rules, and an unchangeable inability for compassion or empathy.

a conceited person can still feel bad, sad, guilty. a narcissist never does.

and about NYC, i do agree that there is a lot of conceit. i mean, you need it to be successful here. but...see above.

Anonymous said...

hey. little sis here.
i knew that was mom! i think the second comment is her too.
i hope im not a narcissist. i think i am conceited though.
dad's a narcissist.
the house has a new computer in the study - like the one you ahve at work - its huge!!
love ya!
ps - you are soooo too good for every boy. but a confident guy can hack it.

Anonymous said...

wholly shitballs. mom swore on her life it was not her who commented above. who the hell is it then? insane x boyfriend? i bet he's playing some mad game with you. shithead. britney rocks my world.

Dr. Taco said...

I'm just looking for someone to share a taco with. Sigh.

hungry girl said...

i know who the first commenter is sis, and she's a lonely jealous bitch who can go fuck herself since no one else will.

she's right though, most guys bore me. she wrong about no guy being good enough for me.